So we just got the word that lay offs are happening in our company. The department upstairs from me let go 10 people this morning. Now my floor is waiting to find out if they affect us too. You know my feelings are mixed on this one. I always said when I go to work and wondering if I am going to get laid off then it is time to move on from that job.
On one hand I would love to get laid off, you know spend some time with Lani while I look for another job but then there is the other hand. The evil hand, the hand that tells me I would freak out and instantly go into panic mode. I would start to think, what if I don’t find another job, what if it is months before I find one, what about the bills, what about Michaela graduating this year and this being the most expensive year for high school, what about the daycare bill I would be paying to keep Lani active in the school so that when I went back to work I would have somewhere to keep her?
You see there would be no joy in me getting laid off because I would not see the bright side, if there is one, I would only see the terrible things and worry about stuff I did not even have to worry about. I would really like to make a life change now. Some how what I do now just does not give the reward in life I am looking for. Besides, it is always easier to make a life change when someone else does it for you. Right?